Chasing a desire. It is scary to want success and at the same time fear failure. It is literally a tug-of-war. On one side, you want to be authentic to yourself; and your mind, body, and spirit is telling you to step out on faith and go after your desire. But on the other side, the very same mind, body, and spirit is tell you, “are you sure?” It is telling you, maybe you have it wrong. Maybe you aren’t destined for success. Maybe you should sit this one out and let the professionals handle it. So you do. And then you see someone do the very thing you desired. What makes it even worse is the person does it unapologetically and fearlessly. You feel a sense of failure, perhaps even envy because the person has the balls to do what you have spent years trying to muster up the courage to do. Even now, you want it but you don’t quite know how to get it. You are scared. Scared that people aren’t going to understand. Scared that no one cares. Scared that you are lying to yourself and that you really don’t want it.
Chasing a desire. Not everything you desire, you receive. But the very fact that you desire a thing means that you should at least purse it. But how, how can you pursue something that you are scared of? By moving one step at a time. Begin small. If you want to start a podcast, start by recording a podcast on a laptop, you don’t have to show anyone. If you want to be an actor, start by acting out skits in your living room. If you want to be a real estate agent, start by researching the market. The biggest confidence to go after your desire is practice. And when you stumble, because bumps and bruises are inevitable, remember that failure is an illusion. There is no such thing as failure only lessons learned from the grind.
Good luck.
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